Birthday Wishlist in dedication to a dear soulmate

     Today we're gonna take a slight detour from the theme of my blog of spirituality and Soul to talk about more human things like my upcoming birthday and it's potential birthday wishlist which is dedicated to someone really special to me,L,who is an avid photography fan and who inspires me to be creative and to learn to take photos as well.Hence my birthday wishlist is just that ,a wishlist for all things photography related.

  Thanks to ShopBack,i am able to get cash back on any item i buy from Lazada.com.my(a merchant of ShopBack) which is exactly where i'll be purchasing the following items on my birthday wishlist(when i can afford them that is :P).ShopBack deserves an entire blog post to it but that isn't the point right now,I'll save that for later.For now though,let's focus on my B-day WishList ,shall we?

First on my list is the Nikon Coolpix W100 Waterproof Digital Camera.

Doesn't it look just amazing?

Aside from blending in with the marine life in the sea,and looking amazing at it,it also comes with an 8gb SD Card to save all those photos in.Yay!

 Another choice of mine for waterproof cameras is the Eken H9R 4K Ultra HD Waterproof Camera.

Fancy isn't it?

It looks fancy,comes with 32GB storage,extra battery and a floating monopod.Imagine that-a floating monopod!The possibilities are endless.(though for me,this brand isn't as known as Nikon so i might not choose this after all..we'll see)

  Now that i've picked out my potential cameras,next on my list is a good printer.Why a printer i hear you ask.Well that's easy-to print the beautiful pictures i'd take with my waterproof camera.Again i have two choices but this time it's both from the same brand just different models..decisions decisions..

Canon PIXMA E470 All-In-One Printer with Wifi (*available in black only)

Elegant,stylish and beautiful

It has Wifi enabled printing along with 3 function-Print,Scan and Copy.Imagine that,now all my old photos can be converted into digital form and saved or new one printed out and shared in a photo album.A collector's dream indeed.

                                                    OR

Canon PIXMA G2000 Refillable Ink Tank All-In-One Printer,

Refillable Ink Tank!

This is similar to the ealier one as it has all three functions of print,scan and copy aside from being wifi enabled.However it has an additional benefit of coming with refillable ink tank.WooHoo!

Last but not least is of course Instax Mini.Those before my time would know of the time when a picture was taken and a black and white picture immediately formed.Well the clocks have turned back for Instax Mini is here!Here i have a choice to choose between two colours-Grape and Yellow.

Each comes with 100 film strips so it'd be a while before i run out of pictures.Yay!

I'll let you,the readers decide which colour is more suitable for me(hint,i like the colour purple just so you know).

Instax Mini Yellow:

Choose Sunny Yellow

                                                                  OR

Choose Sour Purple Grapes

 Earlier on i did mention that ShopBack deserves an entire  blog post to itself.However ,dear readers i will not bore you by talking about ShopBack for hours on end.Rather here;'s a quick guide to ShopBack!.

ShopBack's quick guide to it:

~ #1 Online CashBack/Rebates Site in Malaysia
~Cash back for purchases made from ShopBack's merchants + Discounts as well!
~Over 500 merchants in all areas ranging from travel merchants such as Expedia to even Groupon          and lazada
~Cash out quickly and easily to local banks
~Featured on local and international new channels such as The Star Online and Channel News Asia
~Available in 5 OTHER countries -Phillipines,India,Indonesia,Taiwan and Singapore.

Now i bet you're wondering just how ShopBack works don't you.Yes you!I can read your mind and the questions that cross it-is it legit(YES),is it useful(YES) and how does it work(Read on below).

How ShopBack works (Simple version)

                    $$                        $
Merchants ------->ShopBack---------->You

ShopBack's merchants give them a commission for referring You to their site.Instead of keeping the commission all to themselves,ShopBack shares it with You.

If you have any more questions or want detail answers on how ShopBack works look below.

How ShopBack works (Detailed version)

First step:
Click on any store through ShopBack(ad blocks must be disabled for this)and get redirected to the store's website

Next step:
Shop and make a purchase on that store's site the way you normally do

Third step:
Under the 'Pending Tab',CashBack will be credited to your  ShopBack account within 48 hours

Fourth Step:
Once your order is validated by the merchant(which may take anywhere from 30 to 60 days and is done to ensure there is no order cancellation/return/exchange),your CashBack will turn "Redeemable"

Fifth step :
Redeemable CashBack is set at Rm 10.00,at which point you can request for payout.

Sixth Step:
When your Redeemable Cashback reaches Rm.10.00,the bonus can be cashed out as well.

Final Step:
Cash out to your local banks such as Maybank,AmBank,CIMBBank,PublicBank and many more.


Closing

I've hoped you enjoy this post and we're back to our weekly scheduled posts of spirituality next week :)

Life Now After The Oneness Experience

   My life as i've known it has changed after the oneness experience.For one,i've come to accept that Leo is indeed my twin flame (even if we may never reunite in this lifetime) and i'm more at peace with myself (especially noticeable late at night or when i'm still).Plus the  best part of all is that i love myself unconditionally and see the divinity in me just like i did all those years ago (and still do) with Leo.Great news for me.

Will update more later on as it's half past 2 in the morning here.

All About ME!

Describe yourself (personality/attitude/passions/beliefs): Well time for an upheavel. Hence a new updated profile straight from my heart. My personality. That's what being asked yet it doesn't state which lifetime.. Haha.. For I've lived many lifetimes and I've many personalities though the core, the real i, my essense as i like to call it has remained the same. My personality as of now is ever changing. Especially after the experience i had, experiencing myself in others,realiazing about the ego ie the false self, and also understanding how psychology and spirituality work hand in hand. One Deals with the mind and the other with the heart. So to say that i am this or that personality is limiting myself. Once, a long time ago i would have said that i havent developed a personality i like and is in the progress to do so. Now though my goal is to realize my true self. And to be always true to my heart and its callings. For when i am closer to my true self,ie closer to god, my outward personality would reflect that and show characteristics that would be considered as good. But that also is an illusion. Good or bad.Right or wrong. For there are only acts that bring us closer (good)and away(bad)from god . Maybe what i wrote will resonate. Maybe it wont.It matters not. As i see my expansive self in all, i can and want to wish all those who come across my profile and everyone in the world, love from the fullness of my heart.

Describe the type of person you'd like to meet: Funny, i no longer long for home as after the experience i had(detailed below in an essay),i am ahready home. I never left.i just forgot that i never left. As for Who I'd like to meet. Tricky question isnt that. Which i are you asking, my Ego/personality or my deeper self/soul? If i ask my heart, it says to meet whoever that would spur me more on my journey home. For the experience i had was but a glimpse of whats possible. So yes universe, heed my call for a soulmate(s) to guide me home, to grow with me and to share unconditional love with.

Describe the ideal relationship: Inspiration has struck .. The ideal relationship is one where everytime we converse or be With our partner brings us both closer to not just each other but god itself. It goes without saying that unconditional love rules this relationship. Together with forgiviness, acceptance and allowance. And compassion. ~The Ideal Relationship~ Is one where unconditional love is the norm, partners are equal without qualms, compassion and forgiveness roam, freely among the whole, fear is banished from it's throne, Love reigns once again, it's rightful place at the top, with pots of acceptance and allowance, to top it off!

What kind of music moves you? Music such as Trading Yesterday's World on Fire. Yes it's very much talking about Jesus but it's still moving ,the amount of love and devotion the lead singer sings the song with.It has moved me to tears on some occassion(that's the most private thing i'm willing to admit) Other music that moves me as those with great lyrics in them whether about love or life.Or usually both.

what is true love? A friend and i disagrees on what constitutes true love. For him it has to be a mutual love that is transformative. For me it doesnt. As i can only speak from experience, true love for me is a love that arises from my heart and flows outwards changing myself and my reality in the process. Its self sustaining, just like a generator ,always giving out love from my heart in a never ending supply.

What is the Soul? The soul to me is pure consciousness,pure love.It's a part of the whole,just like a cup of water taken from a river is still part of that river only thing now contained in a vessel-the same goes for our soul which is now contained in a vessel ie this body we're living in. In the wise words of C.S.Lewis: ~We don't have a soul.We are a soul.We have a body~ As for the theory of the origin of the soul,there are many but the one that resonates with me the most is the following: We descendant(note1) from the source ie the 12th dimension,each time getting more individualistic in our sense of self.But up until the 8th dimension we still exist as groups but once we reach the 7th dimension we also exist as an individual who knows it's part of the whole,not know intellectually for the mind doesn't exist here yet it's a knowing within the whole being. Going down to the 6th dimension,and then the 5th dimension,all the while not knowing polarities,only knowing love and oneness,oneness with one another and within a single being,oneness with the masculine and feminine parts of that being. However whenever we want to descent to the 3rd dimension,this vessel,this body is too limited to contain our whole essence ie both the masculine and feminine part of our souls hence all of us as beings had to split our masculine part and feminine part when taking a birth on this beautiful earth. This is how the twin flames arouse.A twin flame is just the other half of your soul,your ying to your yan,the feminine part to your masculine part or vice versa. Plato said in the begining man had 2 heads,4 arms and 4 legs but the gods jealous of this split man into 2 leaving each half forever searching for it's other half. Note 1:By saying we descendant i'm keeping it simple.The complicated version is more like we projected a part of our essence into the lower realms/dimensions while simultaneous remaining in the higher dimensions. So whenever we go 'home' to the higher dimensions we are merely realizing that we never left in the first place.

What does "consciousness" mean to you? Consciousness means to me a sense of awareness. I am aware that i exist.I am aware of the fact that i'm aware.It's hard to describe really.How does one describe something so intangible,something so subjective?But then again truth is subjective isn't it? Consciousness as far as i'm aware of,if you want to put it in terms of duality(which is what this 3rd dimension is all about)can be "split" into love/power,mother/father,femin ine/masculine. I had an experience once where to put it simply i wasn't thinking,i wasn't feeling(ie had no emotions nor thoughts which makes up what we call the personality).Yet i existed.I was aware.And i was aware of being aware.I also 'felt' this sense of power within me.A power so great that with a little ego it could corrupt.But the state i was in ,my ego cease to be for i felt no need to corrupt the power. Perhaps because i'm the masculine half of my soul,that's why i resonated or felt more easily the power aspect rather than the feminine/love aspect which no doubt my other half or twin flame would feel. The goal in this life though is to develop both sides of myself-masculine and feminine and become whole within myself.So that polarities don't exist anymore.And i can go home.Wherever that is.

Strangest thing to happen to you? I had this experience once when a being of light materialized in my room one night and touched my cheek lovingly.I remember it because the touch always comfort me for hours on end later on. This being of light,if i were to describe it would be to say it had arms,legs,torso,face etc just like a human except it was almost 6ft tall and it's body was made up of spirals of light.That's the best i can describe it.And it's face couldn't be made out but i felt it was masculine and it was someone close to me that i knew. I read later on that in the 5th dimension,we'd have something called a light body,essentially a body made of light. Which made me to reason that this being that visited me was from the 5th dimension,where our higher self resides,probably either his(the person whom i felt it to be) higher self or mine or perhaps a projection of him from the future(as we are said to be in the midst of ascension,ascending to the 5th dimension.)

What is a twin flame to me? A twin flame to me is someone that complements you in the end.But not in the begining(ie when you first meet). At initial meeting,whatever hasn't been processed comes up to be processed because in the face of unconditional love,nothing can hide.Everything that is not love is transmuted into love. Fear.That's your biggest energetic enemy.At least for me it was.When i meant 'the one' which now i know not is my twin flame or not but i realize doesn't matter anyways because in the end i'll already know the truth.I always have.I just can't access it right now. Anyways,yes fear.I saw all my deep wounds and fears clearly as day whenever i was around him.I never did before,always blaming others for my fears,never seeing it was my own. Anyways back to the topic at hand,Unconditional love,that's a huge thing between twin flames... The love is so great that you see their soul,in all it's glory,magnificant,bright,beaut iful and it brings you to you knees in love and tears. That's what love is supposed to be all about.Seeing and recognizing one's divinity .If everyone saw everyone else's divinity,if everyone felt pain for hurting another,pain as those when they hurt the other they hurt themselves,all suffering would end. And this love,it's pure,that's how i'd describe it.And also there's this sense of wanting to share this love with everyone.That keeping it between the two of us wasn't good enough.Wasn't fulfilling enough. There's a purity to this love.It's like how a mother would love her child but even purer i think.It's filled with unconditional love out of which unconditional forgiveness,acceptance and allowance arises. Forgiveness for everything said or not said,done or not done,acceptance for everything they are ,everything they aren't,everything they could be and everything they'll never be in this life,and allowance for them to be themselves. This love cuts through the personality and starts at the soul level first.The souls recognize each other and then only the personality gets a whip of the scent. It's Divine Love. i learnt a lot from my love from him. I learnt that: -unconditional love loves because one exists.No other reason.You are loved because you exist. -Sex is sacred and a way to merge two souls in two physical bodies -anger creates separation between one person and another and love can't bear this separation -this physicality is the real illusion and the reality is that we (me and him) are one. - unconditional love can move mountains -Unconditional love inspires me to be the best version of myself i could be. Unconditional love is the driving force of this universe(or at the very least,mine)

What is the sense of "I" Interesting question isn't it? To me the ego is the major source of sense of "I" in this earthly life.Ego in this sense is our sense of separation from everything and everyone around us,separation from the source. The ego is vital for us surviving in a cold ,harsh world..or maybe it developed out of an experimentation in physicality gone wrong,i know not.But i know it's not 'evil' or 'bad' like it's made out to be.It's part of the package we came in this life,and i believe with unconditional love,acceptance,forgiveness and allowance it can be transcended. Our personality to me is the clothes our souls(Or essence as i like to call it,the 'real' us),wear on this earthly life to achieve whatever we(as our souls) came here to do.The personality is shaped by our genetics,the stars,our environment growing up,at work or at play etc.All driving us onwards to fulfill whatever purpose we came here to do. Look at me going off on a tangent.I almost forgot what i was saying in the first place... As i was saying,when we are our souls(ie in the 5th dimension),there is still a sense of individuality but it's overshadowed by this sense of oneness. It's like a whole cake being cut into 12 pieces say yet until you remove a piece from that whole,the cake still 'feels' whole and at one with each piece yet individual at the same time. Our souls are unique.Each of our soul has a signature frequency.That's why Twin Flames can recognize each other no matter what-which is a topic for my next discussion.

Recent spiritual experiences Just a few days ago, i had an experience where i felt i was in everything and everyone, alive and inanimate objects.The i that i felt was an expansive non attached i. I felt myself in all yet i wasnt attached to a specific form. Its as though i experienced myself as a Finger all these years and now i was experiencing myself as the hand ..knowing and seeing myself in all five fingers rather than limited to one finger.

Unique experience part two As i previously wrote before consciousness is the awareness preceeding this body of mine, thoughts and Emotions. But it wasnt until my experience a week ago that i finally realized once and for all that i am not my thoughts nor my emotions nor the mental construct known as my personality though i love them hence what i always thought as myself and the world dearly.

Hello World

Hello World,

Welcome to my new blog Glimpses Of My Soul Self.What's it's about you may ask.That's quite simple.It's about me(the individual known as Jeeva aka the personality/ego self) learning and knowing about my Soul Self(The real ME beyond the mind,body and personality or in other words beyond my ego).

Will keep this post update from time to time worry not!.

Up next is a summary of my post on another site that details my experiences.Feel free to read and comment and like on the next post :)

Peace and love be upon you all!